[ . . . buzen nods. that, he understands a little bit less, but.]
... betraying your duty that you chose for your sister would be like betraying the love that drove you to it?
[if he could take a guess. he looks out over the views and nods to himself]
... mm. I went through hell for Matsu - one of the Gous. It's... not quite the same, but it may as well have been. I didn't need to be there and I didn't need to stain my blade and my body in quite so much blood. But... even if it wasn't assigned to me, I would've. For him.
But it's hard to expect the other people who love us to accept it. [he glances over at vax] ... So how're you doing?
If others are treating it like this might be their last moments with you.
[ buzen got the more complicated meaning first, but it's actually even more simple. ] My soul for hers. If I selfishly chose to live, she'd take her instead.
...But, I don't want that, anyway. This was my fate, and - I'm glad. Gave me a purpose.
[ something that vax'ildan was so deeply lacking most of his life. something he desperately needed - and though it took him a while to get to it, running terrified from death, from his own ending, now, he knows it was fate. he's fate touched, after all.
vaxildan listens to buzen story, quietly, and nods. it's another place that they're similar - doing everything you can to protect the people they love. he's come to expect that from buzen, after all, and his expression is quietly appreciative. for someone who isn't very human, he gets it.
... though. "how are you feeling". that's a question.
he purses his lips, thinking. ] ... I don't know.
Guilty, I think. Sad. [ that feels easy. ] But not like I want to turn back. You know?
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... betraying your duty that you chose for your sister would be like betraying the love that drove you to it?
[if he could take a guess. he looks out over the views and nods to himself]
... mm. I went through hell for Matsu - one of the Gous. It's... not quite the same, but it may as well have been. I didn't need to be there and I didn't need to stain my blade and my body in quite so much blood. But... even if it wasn't assigned to me, I would've. For him.
But it's hard to expect the other people who love us to accept it. [he glances over at vax] ... So how're you doing?
If others are treating it like this might be their last moments with you.
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[ buzen got the more complicated meaning first, but it's actually even more simple. ] My soul for hers. If I selfishly chose to live, she'd take her instead.
...But, I don't want that, anyway. This was my fate, and - I'm glad. Gave me a purpose.
[ something that vax'ildan was so deeply lacking most of his life. something he desperately needed - and though it took him a while to get to it, running terrified from death, from his own ending, now, he knows it was fate. he's fate touched, after all.
vaxildan listens to buzen story, quietly, and nods. it's another place that they're similar - doing everything you can to protect the people they love. he's come to expect that from buzen, after all, and his expression is quietly appreciative. for someone who isn't very human, he gets it.
... though. "how are you feeling". that's a question.
he purses his lips, thinking. ] ... I don't know.
Guilty, I think. Sad. [ that feels easy. ] But not like I want to turn back. You know?