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[ sometimes you just fucking run here to see something like this
it's. it just a lot, to see it again. to see the expressions on their faces, just barely, but more importantly, to see vex'ahlia. even if it's not fully her, he knows it is, and vax just sort of stares at it for a while, his hand resting on the edge of itsuki's chair, until it starts to fade.
just to remind himself that it happened, that it was real.
he exhales, as it starts to fade away, and says, very softly: ] ...thanks.
it's. it just a lot, to see it again. to see the expressions on their faces, just barely, but more importantly, to see vex'ahlia. even if it's not fully her, he knows it is, and vax just sort of stares at it for a while, his hand resting on the edge of itsuki's chair, until it starts to fade.
just to remind himself that it happened, that it was real.
he exhales, as it starts to fade away, and says, very softly: ] ...thanks.
[...What would it feel like, to want to see someone like that so badly? Itsuki has his sister, but he's associated her memory with so much guilt that thinking of her hurts even now.
Well, Itsuki thinks he understands a little more, now that he remembers Buzen again. If he got to see him again...]
...That should be my line. I don't get a lot of opportunities here to show people something nice.
[there's just so much trauma...]
Well, Itsuki thinks he understands a little more, now that he remembers Buzen again. If he got to see him again...]
...That should be my line. I don't get a lot of opportunities here to show people something nice.
[there's just so much trauma...]
[he wonders if it's his place to ask if Vax ever forgave him (not knowing that he'll get a memshare to answer that later), it feels too sensitive of a question, instead]
So you went on a lot of adventures? Percy-kun mentioned having to fight a dragon.
So you went on a lot of adventures? Percy-kun mentioned having to fight a dragon.
[Itsuki's persistent for sure, but he's grateful that Vax decided to call out to him... Otherwise, he's not sure he would have ever found him. He puts his hands in his pockets, then slowly moves towards Vax, so that he can see him a little bit better.]
Looking for you. I thought about leaving a message on your phone, but... I wanted to see you in person.
Looking for you. I thought about leaving a message on your phone, but... I wanted to see you in person.
[ well! he's here.
it's hard to see vax's facial expression - the hood over his head covers the majority of it, but itsuki can probably get a sense just by looking at him. he's miserable, though he's trying to hide it. ]
...nn. [ not much in the way of response, at first. ] 'm alright.
it's hard to see vax's facial expression - the hood over his head covers the majority of it, but itsuki can probably get a sense just by looking at him. he's miserable, though he's trying to hide it. ]
...nn. [ not much in the way of response, at first. ] 'm alright.
[well,
it's not any different from what Itsuki expected, but oh boy -- it hurts.]
...I know the feeling. [of saying it when it's not true] Well, of saying you're fine. I can't possibly understand the rest.
[of being faced with the decision of fighting someone you love tomorrow, for actions that weren't even under their control]
I saw Percy-kun earlier. ...It really hurts to see him like that.
it's not any different from what Itsuki expected, but oh boy -- it hurts.]
...I know the feeling. [of saying it when it's not true] Well, of saying you're fine. I can't possibly understand the rest.
[of being faced with the decision of fighting someone you love tomorrow, for actions that weren't even under their control]
I saw Percy-kun earlier. ...It really hurts to see him like that.
[ gay, itsuki.
vax pulls his hands away from the chair and reaches up to scrub at his face. even without any emotion share - because this is a backtag - it is almost impossible to miss the flurry of feelings across his face, the bone deep exhaustion that seems to set into his shoulders as the image disappears. ]
... Glad you did, though. We got lucky. [ to say the least. ]
vax pulls his hands away from the chair and reaches up to scrub at his face. even without any emotion share - because this is a backtag - it is almost impossible to miss the flurry of feelings across his face, the bone deep exhaustion that seems to set into his shoulders as the image disappears. ]
... Glad you did, though. We got lucky. [ to say the least. ]
[after the meeting hall discussion and when Vax returns sweet Vin back home,]
Hey, is Vin-chan okay?
Hey, is Vin-chan okay?
She's knocked, still, but she's alright. I left her some water and some ice for her head.
[ aw, itsuki. vax looks glad to see him, and no less affectionate for his baby sister, though he does still look tired. what an afternoon. i prevented two knife fights. ] What a fucking mess.
[ aw, itsuki. vax looks glad to see him, and no less affectionate for his baby sister, though he does still look tired. what an afternoon. i prevented two knife fights. ] What a fucking mess.
Could have been worse if you and Yasu-kun weren't there.
[VAX REALLY DID, HE OUT HERE SAVING THEIR ASSES and also being proposed to by estinien]
Do you think it was a gumball effect?
[VAX REALLY DID, HE OUT HERE SAVING THEIR ASSES and also being proposed to by estinien]
Do you think it was a gumball effect?
[ sometimes you are just quick and sneaky and good at stopping other winged people and also your sister. ]
...Iunno. I don't really think so - the fact that it happened twice makes me think it might've been someone else. 's fucking annoying, but it might be that Dreamer who wants us all to burn this place down.
...Iunno. I don't really think so - the fact that it happened twice makes me think it might've been someone else. 's fucking annoying, but it might be that Dreamer who wants us all to burn this place down.
[dreamer.... Itsuki immediately pulls a face,]
They're the one who wanted us to have the meetings. [why are they being like this now :/] Though I guess I'm not that surprised when all they've done is send us cryptic dreams about how we should be doing more.
They're the one who wanted us to have the meetings. [why are they being like this now :/] Though I guess I'm not that surprised when all they've done is send us cryptic dreams about how we should be doing more.
That's what I don't get -- well, that and basically everything else.
It's because of that refraction thing that we're killing in the first place, right? It does something to our minds... What did Steel-san call it? Like an infection.
It's because of that refraction thing that we're killing in the first place, right? It does something to our minds... What did Steel-san call it? Like an infection.
Yeah. But... people who are refracted - even if they act, a week later, if people take care of them and watch out for them, it goes away.
's what happened to Percy. He was acting weird even after we survived, and it wasn't until last Friday that it got better.
's what happened to Percy. He was acting weird even after we survived, and it wasn't until last Friday that it got better.
[Itsuki has his hands tucked in his kimono sleeves as he walks up and down the aisle of graves, his gait clearly restless. he comes to a stop as soon as he catches sight of Vax though, expression flickering a little -- before he averts his gaze.]
...Hey. I just finished exploring with Te-kun and Prompto.
...Hey. I just finished exploring with Te-kun and Prompto.
[ vax is... well, he's here! the cemetery is a place he likes to brood in general, so this maybe isn't any different. his wings, which have been big and fluffy raven feathers all week, are sort of melting. like so, dragging on the ground behind him.
...
he's quiet, for a moment, and then steps a little closer, expression solemn. ] ...What'd you see?
...
he's quiet, for a moment, and then steps a little closer, expression solemn. ] ...What'd you see?
[The corners of Itsuki's lips twist down, and the tone of his voice is biting, almost derisive.]
...We felt something like an earthquake, and we heard rumbling all around us. But nothing was damaged. Even though we kept on looking -- there wasn't anything else. Nothing. There was just --
[he presses his lips together, tries to breath. a curl of purple smoke wafts from under his clothes,]
...We felt something like an earthquake, and we heard rumbling all around us. But nothing was damaged. Even though we kept on looking -- there wasn't anything else. Nothing. There was just --
[he presses his lips together, tries to breath. a curl of purple smoke wafts from under his clothes,]
...an earthquake.
[ huh.
...well. maybe that means things will be destroyed, tomorrow - great. vax watches itsuki react, brows knitting together, and... after a moment, he reaches out and touches his arm, gentle. ]
...thanks, for looking, Fluffy. [ soft. ]
[ huh.
...well. maybe that means things will be destroyed, tomorrow - great. vax watches itsuki react, brows knitting together, and... after a moment, he reaches out and touches his arm, gentle. ]
...thanks, for looking, Fluffy. [ soft. ]
[the sharpness inside of him recedes just a little at the touch -- but the fact that it recedes at all... He's grateful, even though a part of him would prefer feeling this pain.
He can see that pain outlined in Vax's wings, falling to the ground. He takes in a breath, and his voice is steadier, if also a little rote.]
...I used a gumball the other day. Foresight. One premonition about a case, to be used before Thursday. Nothing happened Wednesday, but Thursday night... I had a dream.
He can see that pain outlined in Vax's wings, falling to the ground. He takes in a breath, and his voice is steadier, if also a little rote.]
...I used a gumball the other day. Foresight. One premonition about a case, to be used before Thursday. Nothing happened Wednesday, but Thursday night... I had a dream.
[His shoulders lower a little in relief -- part of him had thought... well, that maybe it wasn't the gumball at all, maybe it was just a dream, but if Vax had one, then...]
I was somewhere really cold, and trying to talk to someone. But I couldn't see who they were. Then they just started transforming into... this monster? They were really angry, but I woke up before I could see the rest.
[he glances at the cemetery around them]
I thought maybe it might have to do with Mete-chan, but... if it's somewhere cold, then it's probably the mountain, right?
I was somewhere really cold, and trying to talk to someone. But I couldn't see who they were. Then they just started transforming into... this monster? They were really angry, but I woke up before I could see the rest.
[he glances at the cemetery around them]
I thought maybe it might have to do with Mete-chan, but... if it's somewhere cold, then it's probably the mountain, right?
[ his wings droop a little further, at the mention of meteion, but he doesn't draw any attention to it, just listening. ]
... Might be whatever happened to Birdie. [ which is a whole other hateful thing - his wings droop a little further, leaving little puddles of black tar on the ground. ] Wonder if they're related, somehow.
... Might be whatever happened to Birdie. [ which is a whole other hateful thing - his wings droop a little further, leaving little puddles of black tar on the ground. ] Wonder if they're related, somehow.
[Crow... The purple ends of Itsuki's hair darken to black,]
...Feels like I should think a little harder, but... Everything feels kind of blank.
...Feels like I should think a little harder, but... Everything feels kind of blank.
[ oh buddy.
... the hand on itsuki's arm is still there, so. vax squeezes his arm, and his voice softens a little - rougher, but more gentle, too. ]
... Then right now, don't. [ think harder, that is. poor itsuki - he's really lost a lot, hasn't he? this place has been harder on him than nearly anyone. ] That's all we get to do tomorrow, isn't it? Think.
...When people pass on, you should exalt their memory, but you should grieve them, too. No one can fault you for that. [ with a small, lopsided, just there smile - ] If anyone gives you shit, let me know, and I'll kick their asses.
... the hand on itsuki's arm is still there, so. vax squeezes his arm, and his voice softens a little - rougher, but more gentle, too. ]
... Then right now, don't. [ think harder, that is. poor itsuki - he's really lost a lot, hasn't he? this place has been harder on him than nearly anyone. ] That's all we get to do tomorrow, isn't it? Think.
...When people pass on, you should exalt their memory, but you should grieve them, too. No one can fault you for that. [ with a small, lopsided, just there smile - ] If anyone gives you shit, let me know, and I'll kick their asses.
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