[the sharpness inside of him recedes just a little at the touch -- but the fact that it recedes at all... He's grateful, even though a part of him would prefer feeling this pain.
He can see that pain outlined in Vax's wings, falling to the ground. He takes in a breath, and his voice is steadier, if also a little rote.]
...I used a gumball the other day. Foresight. One premonition about a case, to be used before Thursday. Nothing happened Wednesday, but Thursday night... I had a dream.
... his expression softens a little, mouth lifting at the corner, and his hand stays gently on itsuki's arm. ] I had one last week. 's how I knew to check the medbay.
[His shoulders lower a little in relief -- part of him had thought... well, that maybe it wasn't the gumball at all, maybe it was just a dream, but if Vax had one, then...]
I was somewhere really cold, and trying to talk to someone. But I couldn't see who they were. Then they just started transforming into... this monster? They were really angry, but I woke up before I could see the rest.
[he glances at the cemetery around them]
I thought maybe it might have to do with Mete-chan, but... if it's somewhere cold, then it's probably the mountain, right?
[ his wings droop a little further, at the mention of meteion, but he doesn't draw any attention to it, just listening. ]
... Might be whatever happened to Birdie. [ which is a whole other hateful thing - his wings droop a little further, leaving little puddles of black tar on the ground. ] Wonder if they're related, somehow.
... the hand on itsuki's arm is still there, so. vax squeezes his arm, and his voice softens a little - rougher, but more gentle, too. ]
... Then right now, don't. [ think harder, that is. poor itsuki - he's really lost a lot, hasn't he? this place has been harder on him than nearly anyone. ] That's all we get to do tomorrow, isn't it? Think.
...When people pass on, you should exalt their memory, but you should grieve them, too. No one can fault you for that. [ with a small, lopsided, just there smile - ] If anyone gives you shit, let me know, and I'll kick their asses.
…as the champion of the Raven Queen, there are some things at home that I can uniquely do. ‘s a part of my job, to guide lost souls to Shadowfell. I went to that gumball machine and thought about it, and used the whale thing.
[ vax’s wings flutter, again, rustling, as he pulls a tricolored gumball from his cloak, sporting blue, orange and green, and shows it to itsuki. ] I can’t bring the dead back. But - I can find them. More importantly, I can bring someone to talk to one of them. It’s only for a short time, and it’s only once a week, and we have to try and use it some for information, but….
…next week. I can take you to see Buzen. If that’s something you want.
[For a moment, Itsuki's expression is completely blank with shock, the gaze in his eyes wide and uncomprehending -- before it finally filters in, Vax's words, his offer. All of it reaching him, despite the distance he's felt since he woke up this morning and saw the empty futon.
he swallows the plea before it can escape his throat, his eyes brimming. Instead, he reaches for something else, voice husky]
...Thank you. I... thank you.
[for this offer, but most of all, for this kindness]
But... [he doesn't even want to say it, he wants to say yes so badly, but... his fingers clutch onto the phone in his pocket] Last night... Mete-chan said she wanted to talk to Bass -- she wanted to tell him that she was sorry. I...
[god, he wants to see Meteion too,]
...She should see him. And Bass too, he should get to hear from her.
...Metie's going to see him. [ buzen, that is. the bit about bass is harder, makes the oilslick of his wings seem to get worse, the black ink dripping slowly into the snow under their feet. ] And Bass - I think... I think their situation might end up a little different.
[ he's lost a lot, and he knows, after the past week, that bass is going to take this really hard. but, still. ] I don't know if the power'd work on the Residents, or not.
I can find out. But if it doesn't, I want you to take it. I'm taking Vin, this week.
[...he reaches for Vax's hand, and this time he doesn't try to hold back his tears.]
...Vax. [thank you] If... If the trial tomorrow is bad...
[who is he kidding, he knows it's going to be. Everyone will be in pain, but... he can't help but be afraid, there are some who might suffer the most, depending on how things shake up.]
If it's Yasu-kun or Shuu-kun, and if one of them ends up dying on Sunday... They'll need it more than I do, but if not then...
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He can see that pain outlined in Vax's wings, falling to the ground. He takes in a breath, and his voice is steadier, if also a little rote.]
...I used a gumball the other day. Foresight. One premonition about a case, to be used before Thursday. Nothing happened Wednesday, but Thursday night... I had a dream.
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... his expression softens a little, mouth lifting at the corner, and his hand stays gently on itsuki's arm. ] I had one last week. 's how I knew to check the medbay.
What'd you see?
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I was somewhere really cold, and trying to talk to someone. But I couldn't see who they were. Then they just started transforming into... this monster? They were really angry, but I woke up before I could see the rest.
[he glances at the cemetery around them]
I thought maybe it might have to do with Mete-chan, but... if it's somewhere cold, then it's probably the mountain, right?
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... Might be whatever happened to Birdie. [ which is a whole other hateful thing - his wings droop a little further, leaving little puddles of black tar on the ground. ] Wonder if they're related, somehow.
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...Feels like I should think a little harder, but... Everything feels kind of blank.
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... the hand on itsuki's arm is still there, so. vax squeezes his arm, and his voice softens a little - rougher, but more gentle, too. ]
... Then right now, don't. [ think harder, that is. poor itsuki - he's really lost a lot, hasn't he? this place has been harder on him than nearly anyone. ] That's all we get to do tomorrow, isn't it? Think.
...When people pass on, you should exalt their memory, but you should grieve them, too. No one can fault you for that. [ with a small, lopsided, just there smile - ] If anyone gives you shit, let me know, and I'll kick their asses.
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...Thanks. Don't know if you'll have to though -- everyone here is kind. [like vax] You've all been patient with me, since the beginning.
[he pauses]
Sorry, patient's not the right word... You've all been -- here.
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[ he's fond, as he says so - the parts of his wings that aren't all melty and black ruffle a little, feathers in the wind. ]
You're a good guy, Fluffy.
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...Thanks. Feels nice since it's coming from you.
[he looks out over the cemetery, his smile turning a little more pensive.]
I wish we already knew how to get them back.
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[ ...
vax is quiet for a moment, shoving his hands into his pockets. ]
... Next week - it can't be this one. But, next week. I've got a proposition for you, if you're interested.
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Yeah? What is it?
[if it's something he can help with...]
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…as the champion of the Raven Queen, there are some things at home that I can uniquely do. ‘s a part of my job, to guide lost souls to Shadowfell. I went to that gumball machine and thought about it, and used the whale thing.
[ vax’s wings flutter, again, rustling, as he pulls a tricolored gumball from his cloak, sporting blue, orange and green, and shows it to itsuki. ] I can’t bring the dead back. But - I can find them. More importantly, I can bring someone to talk to one of them. It’s only for a short time, and it’s only once a week, and we have to try and use it some for information, but….
…next week. I can take you to see Buzen. If that’s something you want.
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he swallows the plea before it can escape his throat, his eyes brimming. Instead, he reaches for something else, voice husky]
...Thank you. I... thank you.
[for this offer, but most of all, for this kindness]
But... [he doesn't even want to say it, he wants to say yes so badly, but... his fingers clutch onto the phone in his pocket] Last night... Mete-chan said she wanted to talk to Bass -- she wanted to tell him that she was sorry. I...
[god, he wants to see Meteion too,]
...She should see him. And Bass too, he should get to hear from her.
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... ]
...Metie's going to see him. [ buzen, that is. the bit about bass is harder, makes the oilslick of his wings seem to get worse, the black ink dripping slowly into the snow under their feet. ] And Bass - I think... I think their situation might end up a little different.
[ he's lost a lot, and he knows, after the past week, that bass is going to take this really hard. but, still. ] I don't know if the power'd work on the Residents, or not.
I can find out. But if it doesn't, I want you to take it. I'm taking Vin, this week.
Alright?
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...Vax. [thank you] If... If the trial tomorrow is bad...
[who is he kidding, he knows it's going to be. Everyone will be in pain, but... he can't help but be afraid, there are some who might suffer the most, depending on how things shake up.]
If it's Yasu-kun or Shuu-kun, and if one of them ends up dying on Sunday... They'll need it more than I do, but if not then...
[if they can both be safe]
...I'd like to see Buzen again. ...Thank you.