[ admittedly, his view on death is a little different than others. vax'ildan wasn't entirely sure that they'd be back alive, really - maybe just in limbo, maybe just waiting to be sent off to wherever their souls needed to go. so, it's heartening, to see them back for good - to know that death in this place as just as fucked as he's thought it was.
the softer laugh gets a fond smile. he ducks underneath the cranes, admiring the view. ]
You were missed, y'know. Left a pretty big hole behind.
[He turns to look at Vax at that, and for once his expression isn't self-deprecating or disbelieving. For once he doesn't think 'people care?' and try to close himself off.
It's been a journey for sure. Buzen had helped, but... the others here -- Vax and everyone. They've taught him to that it's alright to be worried about.]
...I used to be really scared of that. Leaving people behind.
[he puts his hands in his pockets and ducks his head a little,]
I thought that was the worst thing I could do someone. So better not to get too close, if that means I can spare them from that.
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Well, I did tell him I'd follow him anywhere. I just didn't think I'd follow him like that... But it was really great to see him, either way.
[he'll lead Vax towards the living room, pushing the strings of origami cranes aside for him]
And I still would have seen him if I stayed alive. That's thanks to you.
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[ admittedly, his view on death is a little different than others. vax'ildan wasn't entirely sure that they'd be back alive, really - maybe just in limbo, maybe just waiting to be sent off to wherever their souls needed to go. so, it's heartening, to see them back for good - to know that death in this place as just as fucked as he's thought it was.
the softer laugh gets a fond smile. he ducks underneath the cranes, admiring the view. ]
You were missed, y'know. Left a pretty big hole behind.
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It's been a journey for sure. Buzen had helped, but... the others here -- Vax and everyone. They've taught him to that it's alright to be worried about.]
...I used to be really scared of that. Leaving people behind.
[he puts his hands in his pockets and ducks his head a little,]
I thought that was the worst thing I could do someone. So better not to get too close, if that means I can spare them from that.
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... vax is quiet for a moment, looking away from him. leaving someone behind, huh?
(i just wish we had a little more time.
i don't accept this. i don't. i don't accept this.
it feels like she's taking away a part of me. )
... ]
Still feel that way now, you think?