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[he laughs a little louder then]
You’d trust me? We’d have to get creative, but I promise I wouldn’t actually hurt you.
[just in case it’s up for question since - ]
I’m a sword. No matter how I look, I’m a weapon. So if I’m good with people, it’s probably just ‘cause I was made for them.
You’d trust me? We’d have to get creative, but I promise I wouldn’t actually hurt you.
[just in case it’s up for question since - ]
I’m a sword. No matter how I look, I’m a weapon. So if I’m good with people, it’s probably just ‘cause I was made for them.
[
Huh. if vax had his own dagger he might be looking at it a little apologetically right now. swords that are people! why not!
after a moment, wryly: ] Last talking sword I ever met turned out to be a real dick. Bar’s low, but you’re an improvement.
Huh. if vax had his own dagger he might be looking at it a little apologetically right now. swords that are people! why not!
after a moment, wryly: ] Last talking sword I ever met turned out to be a real dick. Bar’s low, but you’re an improvement.
[they are!!
but buzen just laughs at that]
That’s not the first time I’ve heard one of my comrades being a bit unfriendly - though I assume they’re normally just afraid of getting hurt again.
But I’ll take the compliment anyway, thank you. I’ve been glad to meet you too.
but buzen just laughs at that]
That’s not the first time I’ve heard one of my comrades being a bit unfriendly - though I assume they’re normally just afraid of getting hurt again.
But I’ll take the compliment anyway, thank you. I’ve been glad to meet you too.
...I don't think that thing was hurt. [ vax mutters this as he pops the top on the can of baja blast with a szzzz noise. at least as far as grog said, though, who the fuck knows about grog and what goes on in his peabrain sometimes.
... gods, that was a long time ago. he lifts the can in acknowledgement, and then offers it. ]
You want some of this? It's maybe the weirdest thing I've ever had to drink.
... gods, that was a long time ago. he lifts the can in acknowledgement, and then offers it. ]
You want some of this? It's maybe the weirdest thing I've ever had to drink.
[ ?
he will take it back!! and drink also, smacking his lips. ]
Owe you what, a better drink? This's all we've got on our floor. Seriously. Can't even get a fucking pint around here. [ gamer fuel ONLY on the marine floor ]
he will take it back!! and drink also, smacking his lips. ]
Owe you what, a better drink? This's all we've got on our floor. Seriously. Can't even get a fucking pint around here. [ gamer fuel ONLY on the marine floor ]
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Thanks for not sticking me with it.
[ a little jokingly; he knows how big of a deal that is. "i'm a sword" from earlier certainly helps. ]
's alright. Can't say I was any better. I had a knife. If we hadn't gotten through that door, I was going to take Garou out first, you next. [ ... ] Have you ever had anything like that happen to you before?
[ a little jokingly; he knows how big of a deal that is. "i'm a sword" from earlier certainly helps. ]
's alright. Can't say I was any better. I had a knife. If we hadn't gotten through that door, I was going to take Garou out first, you next. [ ... ] Have you ever had anything like that happen to you before?
[ . . . he'll just go sit by wherever vax is, the same distance as the day before. he'd like it, if this place didn't steal that easy comfort from him.]
... No.
I've never felt any of that before. [he puts his hand over his chest, confused] I don't want to give the impression that I'm some kind of blessed or ceremonial sword. I've killed a lot of people.
... but that's different from wanting to.
[a tool, a weapon, has no desire. it simply cuts.]
... No.
I've never felt any of that before. [he puts his hand over his chest, confused] I don't want to give the impression that I'm some kind of blessed or ceremonial sword. I've killed a lot of people.
... but that's different from wanting to.
[a tool, a weapon, has no desire. it simply cuts.]
[ despite vax's everything, he's a pretty good listener. and he doesn't seem to mind the distance at all, letting him sit close.
he can't imagine a life never wanting - that's beyond his purview - but it makes sense for buzen, at least. he's quiet for a moment longer, reflective, playing with the feather still tucked in his own hair. ]
... That's the tricky shit with magic like that. That's what it felt like to me, like I was being Charmed.
[ something that vax has unfortunately fallen victim to too many times.
he looks up, away from buzen. ] ...One time, I was charmed and attacked my sister. [ his sister, his other half, his heart. ] It turns you into something you aren't, at the whims of someone else, and there's fuckall you can do about it.
It's a shitty feeling for a human, too. [ or at least a half one. ] So you're in good company. You didn't want to, yeah? Someone - the Prism, or what the fuck ever - made you feel that way.
he can't imagine a life never wanting - that's beyond his purview - but it makes sense for buzen, at least. he's quiet for a moment longer, reflective, playing with the feather still tucked in his own hair. ]
... That's the tricky shit with magic like that. That's what it felt like to me, like I was being Charmed.
[ something that vax has unfortunately fallen victim to too many times.
he looks up, away from buzen. ] ...One time, I was charmed and attacked my sister. [ his sister, his other half, his heart. ] It turns you into something you aren't, at the whims of someone else, and there's fuckall you can do about it.
It's a shitty feeling for a human, too. [ or at least a half one. ] So you're in good company. You didn't want to, yeah? Someone - the Prism, or what the fuck ever - made you feel that way.
[ . . . buzen is thoughtful at that, but he does reach out to put a hand on vax's shoulder, squeezing once when he speaks of being charmed. he won't assume, and he won't linger, but he also never feels quite right leaving people alone]
You must be angry.
[is buzen angry? that's harder to say, maybe something closer to disconcerted. but he understands vax's feelings too.]
I don't like the idea of it - that there's something out there that can make a person feel.... less like themselves. It's like tampering with who they are.
You must be angry.
[is buzen angry? that's harder to say, maybe something closer to disconcerted. but he understands vax's feelings too.]
I don't like the idea of it - that there's something out there that can make a person feel.... less like themselves. It's like tampering with who they are.
...maybe. [ he reaches up for a moment and scrubs his hand over his face. it's not an unusual feeling, unfortunately. it's just one that fucking sucks. vax doesn't shrug off the shoulder squeeze, though, letting it happen. what a good soft boy. ]
Iunno if that's what I'm really angry about. 's not like its the first time.
[ and... frankly vex isn't here. he would feel bad about attacking anyone, but, with vexahlia not around, at least that sort of anger won't lash out at her. ]
You're right, though. [ mm. another pause. ] Must be especially weird for you, yeah? Is that why you passed your sword off?
Iunno if that's what I'm really angry about. 's not like its the first time.
[ and... frankly vex isn't here. he would feel bad about attacking anyone, but, with vexahlia not around, at least that sort of anger won't lash out at her. ]
You're right, though. [ mm. another pause. ] Must be especially weird for you, yeah? Is that why you passed your sword off?
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[buzen hums thoughtfully then - ]
Even if it's not the first time, that doesn't make it any better. If anything, it makes it worse. I think you're a good person, Vax-san. I always want you to be you.
[ . . . but at the mention of it being him,]
No. I passed my sword off so I couldn't hurt anyone. It would be way too easy. [he's pretty confident in his strength, no matter who else is around here] At least if it was just my fists, I think people would have a chance to break me first.
Even if it's not the first time, that doesn't make it any better. If anything, it makes it worse. I think you're a good person, Vax-san. I always want you to be you.
[ . . . but at the mention of it being him,]
No. I passed my sword off so I couldn't hurt anyone. It would be way too easy. [he's pretty confident in his strength, no matter who else is around here] At least if it was just my fists, I think people would have a chance to break me first.
[ DON'T JUST SAY THINGS LIKE THAT??? ]
Oi, you barely know me yet. [ gross this sincerity!!! gross!!! he's embarrassed. he gives buzen a jostle with his closest hand, though it's lacking any sort of heat.
let's focus on that! the fists and swords bit. that's a little easier. ] But that makes sense. The effects don't linger, at least.
[ the. charmed ones. he knows the emotional effects do. the guilt of harming someone close to you is much harder to shake - they're pretty lucky they were able to shake it off when they did. ]
Oi, you barely know me yet. [ gross this sincerity!!! gross!!! he's embarrassed. he gives buzen a jostle with his closest hand, though it's lacking any sort of heat.
let's focus on that! the fists and swords bit. that's a little easier. ] But that makes sense. The effects don't linger, at least.
[ the. charmed ones. he knows the emotional effects do. the guilt of harming someone close to you is much harder to shake - they're pretty lucky they were able to shake it off when they did. ]
[??????? he takes the jostle with a little bit of a laugh, though he's clearly confused.]
Do I have to know more about you to like you?
[ . . . but he nods at that.]
Right. I haven't felt anything since we left the mansion. But I was worried for a bit there... I don't want to be forced to hurt anyone.
[he's not really someone who gets the luxury to say 'i don't want to hurt anyone' because sometimes situations arise and he will - but he just got this heart. he doesn't want anyone to mess with it.]
Do I have to know more about you to like you?
[ . . . but he nods at that.]
Right. I haven't felt anything since we left the mansion. But I was worried for a bit there... I don't want to be forced to hurt anyone.
[he's not really someone who gets the luxury to say 'i don't want to hurt anyone' because sometimes situations arise and he will - but he just got this heart. he doesn't want anyone to mess with it.]
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