But yes, sometimes the sad sleepy apartment is not where you want to be when you're already sad and sleepy. Estinien was probably with his husband so it's fine.
The question has him pausing, putting a hand on his stomach and tilting his head like he hasn't thought about it in days.]
Oh... I think so. [It's kind of hard to tell when you're depressed!!! But he will shuffle on over.]
[ he will resume making a sandwich, listening to yams and glancing back over at him occasionally. for now, he won't be able to see vax's expression, as he's turned back and cutting up idk a tomato or something for this sandwich. it's weirdly domestic, for a situation that is actually the worst. ]
...'s a little the same for me. Been a while since I had to eat - sometimes, I even I still forget, and I was more human than you were.
[Yasusada's focused on his water, anyway. It's difficult to hear the sounds of the ocean from in here, but maybe, if he focuses on turning the glass enough, the tiny ripples inside will form their own waves.
But he tilts his head slightly at that, glancing up.]
Was. [ agreeing, confirming. vax glances down at the sandwich he was making, puts the top piece of bread on it, and then scoops it up in a napkin, gesturing at the balcony door with his head. ]
[Yasusada isn't much one for restraining his curiosity, and even under the weight of his emotions, that holds true. He doesn't hesitate to get up and follow Vax, carrying the water glass out with him--and though something dark and sorrowful passes over his face when he looks at the ocean, he shakes his head to clear it, and quietly waits for Vax to speak.]
[ aw, buddy. he holds the door open for him, and that look does not go unnoticed, but vax sits down on the ground, cross legged, and then hands yasusada his half of the sandwich.
... he's quiet for a bit. ]
Situation's... not all that different than Buzen's, really. I'm not supposed to exist anymore. I gave up my mortal form as a part of a pact with the Raven Queen.
[ which is why this felt so hard - after all the conversations they had last week, to see buzen just gone so quickly was... hard. after his adventure with yasusada, knowing what they saw (his kind captain, broken to bits, and whatever fight. his had to be kashuu, didn't it?) he can only imagine how hard it is for someone who's still struggling with human emotions. ]
He was the one who told me - being remembered, that means you still exist. I've been thinking about that ever since.
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[Yasusada listens as he speaks, taking all of this in. He smiles a little, leaning forward and looking down at the water.]
That sounds like something he'd say. [Yasusada's only known him for a few weeks, but he knows the other Gous, and the bond between Touken Danshi is unique.
He tilts his head curiously, pondering Vax's words.]
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But yes, sometimes the sad sleepy apartment is not where you want to be when you're already sad and sleepy. Estinien was probably with his husband so it's fine.
The question has him pausing, putting a hand on his stomach and tilting his head like he hasn't thought about it in days.]
Oh... I think so. [It's kind of hard to tell when you're depressed!!! But he will shuffle on over.]
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Not the best cook, but I can probably manage a sandwich. Let's get some water for you, too.
[ maintenance on your human body bud. vax shuffles over towards the sink area, fills a glass, and holds that out to yasusada, first. ]
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But he sits obediently at the table, taking the glass with both hands.]
Thank you. [He sips at it, just once, before he sets it down and gazes quietly into the glass.] ...It's still a little weird. Having to do this.
[Eating, drinking--the general acts required of living. Things are a lot easier when you're the spirit of an object.]
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[ he will resume making a sandwich, listening to yams and glancing back over at him occasionally. for now, he won't be able to see vax's expression, as he's turned back and cutting up idk a tomato or something for this sandwich. it's weirdly domestic, for a situation that is actually the worst. ]
...'s a little the same for me. Been a while since I had to eat - sometimes, I even I still forget, and I was more human than you were.
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But he tilts his head slightly at that, glancing up.]
Was?
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well.
he smiles a little. ]
Was. [ agreeing, confirming. vax glances down at the sandwich he was making, puts the top piece of bread on it, and then scoops it up in a napkin, gesturing at the balcony door with his head. ]
...C'mon. Let's talk about it.
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... he's quiet for a bit. ]
Situation's... not all that different than Buzen's, really. I'm not supposed to exist anymore. I gave up my mortal form as a part of a pact with the Raven Queen.
[ which is why this felt so hard - after all the conversations they had last week, to see buzen just gone so quickly was... hard. after his adventure with yasusada, knowing what they saw (his kind captain, broken to bits, and whatever fight. his had to be kashuu, didn't it?) he can only imagine how hard it is for someone who's still struggling with human emotions. ]
He was the one who told me - being remembered, that means you still exist. I've been thinking about that ever since.
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That sounds like something he'd say. [Yasusada's only known him for a few weeks, but he knows the other Gous, and the bond between Touken Danshi is unique.
He tilts his head curiously, pondering Vax's words.]
You gave up your form--what does that mean?