Well...we had to make a bargain with a witch, who really only wanted to see us suffer. All so we could get help with finding our missing friends, which did turn out to help...but not with gaining some lasting effects
[ frowns ] And running into more trouble on the way...
...That fucking sucks. [ plain and simple. ] ...'m sorry, Rubes. That that happened to you, and that some piece of shit sorcerer tried to use it against you. 's it still bothering you even now...?
[ vax knows that shaky sigh. he knows that feeling, too - he reaches out and covers ruby's hand with his own, ducking down a little to try and catch her eyes. vax's voice is softer, here, but it carries an intensity to it, a fierceness in his words. ]
Listen to me. Whatever you had to do in there - whatever, or whoever you had to face. It wasn't your fault. Do you hear me?
[ he catches her eyes and her hand balls into a loose fist, eyes glossing over. ]
But I...[ she believes him, she really does, but it's just hard to let something like this go. especially for her. ]...I hurt Vin...it wasn't her, but I still...
[ when you set off to find someone, only to end up fighting them in the end and hurting them, it sticks with you. regardless of if it's real or not. ]
[ he lifts his hands, and reaches up - then very gently cups ruby's cheeks. like idiot sandwich, except very, very gentle. ] You, right now, Ruby. Ruby Rose. Would you want to hurt her? If given the choice?
[ his voice is quietly intense, but heavy with emotion and care, too, as he gently thumbs away the tears. ] There's a reason she loves you, and it's sure as shit not because you hurt her. You're a good person, Rubes. What this place gives you no fucking choice to do doesn't reflect on you, and who you are.
...I hurt my sister, once, because I got charmed. I still think about it sometimes - still blame myself for it. Like, maybe I could've broken free of whatever fucking shit took me over faster, but, I couldn't. She didn't think any less of me for it. Only I did.
It's still gonna hurt, and it's gonna be hard to get rid of that feeling, but I want you to remember that - that you're the best kind of person in the fucking world, and what this place wants you to do doesn't make you any less of that.
[ ... with that finished, he leans forward, and very gently bonks their foreheads together. ] Okay?
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he snorts. ]
Rubes, he won't tell me shit.
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[ she sighs ]
Well...we had to make a bargain with a witch, who really only wanted to see us suffer. All so we could get help with finding our missing friends, which did turn out to help...but not with gaining some lasting effects
[ frowns ] And running into more trouble on the way...
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[ affectionate? maybe???
he huffs, a little though, folding his arms. ] He told me he thought I was missing, at least. What kind of bargain did you make?
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she nods. ] Vin was missing for me...
I have to relive a terrible memory, whenever I'm unfocused...a huge failure of mine...
[ a beat ]...seeing my friend Penny, die, right in front of me...I was too late to do anything to stop it.
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vax's expression contorts immediately - brows knitting together, worry. ]
...That fucking sucks. [ plain and simple. ] ...'m sorry, Rubes. That that happened to you, and that some piece of shit sorcerer tried to use it against you. 's it still bothering you even now...?
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It's not as strong, but if I'm not focused...it comes back. It's not the vision itself that bothers me as much as the guilt that comes with it...
[ sighs shakily ]
...and now they'll just be more added to it...
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[ vax knows that shaky sigh. he knows that feeling, too - he reaches out and covers ruby's hand with his own, ducking down a little to try and catch her eyes. vax's voice is softer, here, but it carries an intensity to it, a fierceness in his words. ]
Listen to me. Whatever you had to do in there - whatever, or whoever you had to face. It wasn't your fault. Do you hear me?
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But I...[ she believes him, she really does, but it's just hard to let something like this go. especially for her. ]...I hurt Vin...it wasn't her, but I still...
[ when you set off to find someone, only to end up fighting them in the end and hurting them, it sticks with you. regardless of if it's real or not. ]
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[ he lifts his hands, and reaches up - then very gently cups ruby's cheeks. like idiot sandwich, except very, very gentle. ] You, right now, Ruby. Ruby Rose. Would you want to hurt her? If given the choice?
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No...! [ her voice cracks slightly ] Never...
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[ his voice is quietly intense, but heavy with emotion and care, too, as he gently thumbs away the tears. ] There's a reason she loves you, and it's sure as shit not because you hurt her. You're a good person, Rubes. What this place gives you no fucking choice to do doesn't reflect on you, and who you are.
...I hurt my sister, once, because I got charmed. I still think about it sometimes - still blame myself for it. Like, maybe I could've broken free of whatever fucking shit took me over faster, but, I couldn't. She didn't think any less of me for it. Only I did.
It's still gonna hurt, and it's gonna be hard to get rid of that feeling, but I want you to remember that - that you're the best kind of person in the fucking world, and what this place wants you to do doesn't make you any less of that.
[ ... with that finished, he leans forward, and very gently bonks their foreheads together. ] Okay?